day 9/42

06.29.10

i weighed myself at the gym.... 154.
i dont know if i believe that or not.

what ive eaten:
-doritos ~ 200 cal
-butterfingers 6 mini ~ 540 cal
-lo carb monster ~ 20 cal
-doritos ~ 100 cal
-butterfingers 5 mini ~ 450 cal
-white fish && rice ~ 300 cal
TOTAL: 1510 cal. BOOOOOOOOOOOO.
exercise: -100 cal walk.
-150 cal exercise
so end total: 1260 cal.
[[i did that all in my head xP]]

im 72% done with online drivers ed... in 3 days... (:
hahahahahaha. such bullshit. and i didnt kill anyone while driving today.
tomorrrow.... i conquer roads.
..................................maybe.

you know the imma eat healthy thing?
SUCH BULLSHIT.
id rather not eat, rather than eat healthy.
sad? i know.
tomorrow im living of the 4 locarb monsters i bought.
and 420 other ccalories to bring me to 500.

wish me luck!
pictures soon! i promise!

day 8/42

06.28.10

didnt weigh myself today.
i didnt have time.
i just ran... at like midnight. but it was nice. (:
i burnt around 220 im assuming.... 2.2 miles in 23 minutes. haha.
after that i took a cold shower.

things i ate today:
lunch: 1/2 publix turkey sandwich ~ 350 cal
dinner: 1/2 publix turkey sandwich ~ 350 cal
happy cow (i think) cheese ~ 50 cal.
cucumber ~ 50 cal.
snackish: asian noodle ~ 100 cal
pringles ~ 175 cal
lo carb monster ~ 10 cal
cookies ~ 250 cal

total: 1335? cal.

now that i look back on it... that a lot. xP
i looked up my bmr.
its apparently around 1550.
i dont believe it though.

im eating healthy tomorrow cuz im sick of my stomach hurting all the time.

aighht laterrr.

day 7. and now I want to start over.

06.27.10

I weighed myself at the gym.
155. yay.
burnt 300 cal.
but then I got all sad because boys suck.
and I ate a lot. I'm thinking around 2000.
imma take a cold bath later to punish myself.
and gonna go run tomorrow morning. and then gym.
maybe I can burn like 600. then go swimming. 300.
and then I'll feel better.
alright. I'm gonna finish my movie.

later.
I gonna make sure I have good news tomorrow.

day 6/42

6.26.10
its not that i ate a lot today.
its that what i ate had a lot of calories.
total around 1400-1500.
and i only burnt 160 cals from running around my neighborhood.
but im okay with that... and ill tell you why.
i started off running and im like...
this is so stupid i hate p.e. ugh i cant wait for this 20 minutes to be over.
and then after i ran like 3/4 of a mile... i was like i feel fantastic.
but the problem was... i started running faster... which got my heart rate up faster.
which means i had to stop more because i kept going OVER the target heart rate zone.
and then when i was done i just kept running probably a quarter of a mile.
but still... its a new experience for me... and i was really pleased with it. (:

and now for the bad news.
wanna know what i ate today?
okay ill tell you. xP
1. croissant sandwich~420
2. ritz bits~450
3. diet dr. pepper
4. QT sandwich~280
5. chocolate eclair ice cream~200 maybe. i forgot to check.
6. 1/2 100 cal popcorn~60
7. homemade blueberry cake~100
and that is why i am fat. good bye.

thinspo soon: gowns and dresses and corsets and such.

croissant sandwiches will be the death of me.

they need to magically disappear from my fridge.

i need to remember next time i put one in the fridge.
how gross i feel right now.

and that im gonna have to go all out gym time later.
just to burn it off.

that is all.