Monday, May 31, 2010


alright so im still 158.5.
which im okay with.
but me and my best friend started this thing where we are gonna eat healthy for an entire week so we can go drinking this weekend. haha.
i didnt do too well today.
but i didnt eat much and i didnt feel good.
and i had some kinda fruit (nectarine) and vegetable (two stalks of celery).

overall ive been doing okay.
my boyfriend forced me to eat when i was at his house.

im hoping to get to 156 this week.
im hoping to go to the gym tomorrow.

and so... laterrr.
ill get pictures up in my next post.

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

it's time to get going.

I saw this guy I used to like. walking down a street today.
he was smoking. and idk why. but that's really attractive to me
and he's hella skinny.
like he's the guy version of a stick. :P

and so that's why I say. it's time to get going on me diet.

till lateerrr.

Monday, May 24, 2010


I weighed myself this morning.
still 158.5.
I'm ice skating tomorrow morning. and then dancing basically all day.
so maybe that'll be good.
but I ate a lot today.
because it's my daddy birthday.

this is short. but I should be asleep haha. so...

Sunday, May 23, 2010

up at four? write a blog post. haha.

I lost 3 pounds this week. yaaay!
I'm so excited. I finally broke the barrier I couldn't get past.
I think it's because I've been walking everywhere since Tuesday.
I like walking. haha.
also personal fitness helps. since I have to run everyday for it.

so it's four am.
and I'm not sleeping. because I'm a loser with insomnia.
or I just don't feel like sleeping.
my problem is I don't feel like doing anything either.
not reading or watching tv or anything.
just wrote another poem.
still thinking about the other boy.
and I hung out with my boyfriend today. well yesterday I guess.
it was nice. but I just kept trying to feel something.
I'm still working on it. XP.
being single was so much easier.

well I'm off. i might walk to cvs for an energy drink. I needs one of those lovelieess. (:

Friday, May 21, 2010

a plate of screw up? yes, please!

im a big fan of screwing things up as they begin.
i just got a boyfriend and they day i went official.
the guy i liked for two year went single.
ironic, right?

and the guy i liked just called me.
he gave me butterflies and we only had a 20 second conversation.
i barely ever get that with my boyfriend.
i dont know whats wrong with me.

my boyfriend:
he fantastic, sweet, and cute.
he cares about me a lot.

the other boy:
ive liked him on and off since 8th grade. him too.
hes awesome, and sweet, and everything ive always dreamed of... kinda.


in weight news i stll weigh the same.
i got an app for tracking calories though. and ive bee walking everywhere since tuesday.
so that should help. and tomorrow im running a mile for online personal fitness.
im kinda nervous to see my time.
i also have a dance show next week.
and a dance camp in june. EXCITTEEEDDDD.
im planning on getting fit this summer so when i do figure out who i want. ill be able to get them.

im so screwed up. XP.


Wednesday, May 5, 2010


i woke up feeling bloaty.
i also ate alot today.
~2055 calories.
i cant believe thats how much normal people eat.
i feel absoutey obese.
imma try to eat mostly ffruits and veggies tomorrow.
to make up for a sucky today.


oh, and happy cinco de mayo.

Tuesday, May 4, 2010


yesterday. ~825 cal!
i didnt have breakfast though so tha pisses me off.
i like food in the morrninn.
i also went to ballet... and thats it.
i probably ate so little because i went to sleep at like 9 by accident.
then my mom woke me up at 5. :P

and on sunday, i started missing ice skating again.
i had so many hopes and dreams put into that sport.
and i really hope i can accomplish some of them this summer.
my favourite skater. irina slutskaya...

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