fuck.

i always have the need to overeat.
i just... i get stressed, happy, sad and i eat.

tomorrow. i get up,
smoke a cig,
and dont eat.
simple as that.
because if i smoke one...
then i cant eat,
because i get this nauseous-y feeling.

problem solved.
tomorrow i will eat under 400.
tomorrow i will weigh myself,
[[and probably cry]]
tomorrow, i wont fail.

and for the rest of today.
i dont deserve anything,
because im worthless.
i dont deserve anything.

yeah.

i want to disappear,
because i know that no one will notice,
no one will care,
they never do, and never will.